If you were asked
what is your favorite thing to look at, would you answer yourself in the
mirror? Most people would consider this
vain thinking. But if that were asked of
me, I would not even come close to that answer.
There are only two times I like looking in the mirror. One, to make sure there is nothing on my
face. Two, to see Little Bit when she is
looking in the mirror. Otherwise, I am
not a friend of the mirror. I do not
like what it reflects. You can say I do
not have much confidence in my appearance.
But my
daughter. Little Bit is precious. When she looks in the mirror, she will tell
you that she is pretty. Whenever I comb
her hair, her response is always “pretty.” And she is. We don’t ever want her thinking differently. We
will continue to instill in her confidence and worth. Something her mother has not had much of.
Whenever we (Hubby
and I) are out with Little Bit, our friends always comment on who she looks
like. There have been times that people
will say she looks like me. I always
have to freeze my thoughts. I can either
accept what they say as truth and believe that if she is pretty and looks like
me, I must be pretty as well. Or I say,
no, she doesn't because she is pretty.
But if I choose the latter, then in essence, I am saying she is not
pretty because I think I am not pretty. How
can I say that about the most precious thing I have ever created?
But I can go the
opposite way as well. In Genesis 1, God
said “let us make man in Our image”. As
the creator of the universe, God is not going to make junk. He is not going to make something He would
not deem worthy or pretty. So what am I
saying about God when I look at myself and see someone unworthy? What am I saying about God when I look in the
mirror and make noises in disgust because of what I see? If I am made in His image, then I must have
some resemblance of Him. Just like
Little Bit has some of my characteristics, I must have some of God’s.
In Ephesians 2:10,
we are told “we are God’s workmanship, created in Jesus Christ for His good
works”. God made me. Then how can I claim that I am not
pretty. How can I claim I am not good
enough? How can I claim I am
unworthy? I can’t. God created me! God made me the way I am for a purpose. He has a work for me to do. Just like He does for you, too!
I can’t let the
world’s standard for beauty affect my standard.
I can’t let what the world thinks is beautiful make me think I am
not. My husband told me about a month
ago, “You are my standard for beauty.” I
can’t call my husband a liar. He is
not. I know that I am real while what
the world deems as beautiful is air brushed and photo shopped. I am a child of God. He created me. Therefore, I am not ugly.
I can change my
opinion of myself. I can work on my
self-image. I can see myself the way my
husband sees me, the way I see my daughter, the way God sees me. But it will take time and practice. And it will only happen By God’s Amazing
Grace.
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